Anhedonia

Life feels empty, common enjoyment a blur, just passing by as quickly as it came. People claim this to be depression, yeah it can be, but that is not quite it. It is misguided. It is hard to explain. Yeah, you can feel sad, but in reality, you just need to find something that brings you joy again. You want something to look forward to. And once you find it, things are good again. This is a feeling that I am not too familiar with, which is why it was confusing as to why I feel this way. I know what brought it on…. But still, it sucks to be feeling this way. The whole depression portion may play a role, but it’s the outlet that we really need. A hobby, sport, friends, lover, family, spontaneous adventure, that is what will help.

You leave work to go workout, grocery store, pay bills, run errands….. Eventually that rut you have dug starts to drag you down. Life is boring. Life feels small and meaningless. Some days aren’t bad, but lately the days seem to drag on and on. They feel longer than usual, it seems harder to get through. You sleep just to wake up to repeat the cycle, no different than a machine. Being in a relationship used to help, it gave some excitement… but now that it’s gone, you feel emptier than before you were with that person. You feel lost; empty, and find yourself searching for a new outlet.

Reach out a hand, but nobody is there to help you. You are on your own. You have to find a reason to keep moving on. Find something that you can look forward to. Work ruins everything. It consumes most of your day. The rest that you have feels small. You stress out about trying to do something fun, but want to go to bed at a decent time. It is a lot to process. It is overwhelming and this working to live thing is getting old. It is tiring. You are always so tired and stressed out. I wish something would change. Life shouldn’t be this way. It is sad, the whole system is sad. It feels as though everyone is meant to be miserable. It is pretty messed up.

AND THEN THEY WONDER WHY DEPRESSION AND SUCIDE RATES HAVE SKYROCKETED….. FIX THIS CORRUPT SYSTEM AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR PEOPLE. MAYBE FIX THE REASON WHY SOMEONE BECOMES DEPRESSED IN THE FIRST PLACE, BEFORE IT BECOMES CHRONIC, ONLY THEN, PERHAPS RATES WILL FINALLY START TO FALL…. DON’T FORGET, THE SCHOOL SYSTEM IS A HUGE RED FLAG THAT NEEDS ATTENTION!

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